sad...

today i get my biology results...paper 1 is quite okay....i am very happy about my paper 2...at least everything is worth it...you know among the three science subjets i dislike the most is biology...

i get my pendidikan moral result...48% only!!! i am so shock!!! i study real hard....i wrote the wrong format...i hate myself so much...why am i so careless!? haiz...what is done cannot be undone...i cry at school..i can't control it...i never fell so sad for my results before...maybe it is because that i have put a lot of effort in it...i fell so angry and i hate myself for being so careless...there are so many obstacles this year....yesterday i was so happy about my add maths result..then today 'bang!' my moral result so poor...

and that's not all...i really think that my chemistry result will cheer me up..'bang!!!!!' a larger slap on my face...i get 87%...my target is beyond this mark...i am so shock...what's happening to me? i really studied and put all my hopes on this subject...i was so numb at that moment...at first, i am thinking that how am i going to tell my chemistry tuition teacher about my result? i even have the guts to think that my chemistry teacher pin-pointing me..

when my mum fetches me back from school...i cry in the car...when i reach home,i cry at my room...i have a severe heartache...my mum says take it as a lesson...yes.i know...but my heart fell so pain...some even tease me....saying that i shoudn't think that i will get full marks all the time...i am so sad that time...i be patience and ignore her only,if not i'll slap her right in her face...after all the mourning,i tell myself that this is a great lesson that God wants me to go through and learn to overcome the obstacles and be tough...i must keep moving forward...i am responsible for my own results...i will tell my tuition teacher that i promise him to get flying results next year...and ready to claim my present from him...

i will stand stronger...i will never let those nonsense people to tease me anymore...never ever! i konw what i want and i promise myself that i will definitely work 110% hard...i will ensure that i never cry when i get my results anymore in future...i am really glad that many of my friends are there to console me and help me....even my family too...thanks mum! thanks au min! thanks allyson,yee xin,shin nee,june,wei chien,yin mei! thanks guys!


Failure is delay,but not defeat.
It is a temporary detour,
not a dead-end street.
William Arthur Ward



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