Betrayal

~*being betrayed

~*twice

~*lesson learnt

~*don't trust people easily

~*your enemy is far but yet is so near

~*just suck it in

~*life is like this

~*just bear with it

~*true friends

~*always there

~*will not betray others




tzelovelife~*

many matter....

i am damn angry now....i do not understand why......
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what happened?
why does 'he' treat me like this?
no,why is 'he' behaving like this?????
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can anyone just answer me.....
maybe i made a mistake....i should never started it at the 1st place......
the world is unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who cares?
I CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
should i just keep quiet or voice out?

'DILEMMA'




tzelovelife~*

don't expect everything....

~*don't expect that life will goes just like the way you want...
i always expect everything to be perfect....
every failure has its own way to teach me a lesson and i realize that i have to follow my heart...

~*don't expect that everyone will likes you....
i learnt this lesson when i was form 3....
remember that when there are people who dislike you....
you still have your friends and family...

~*don't expect that your other half will be 100% loyal to you...
we are people...not dogs....i forgive you for what you had said to me...
and i wanna thank you for leaving a fanstatic memory for me...

~*don't expect that you can be good at everything...
i am poor in add maths, chinese, malay, ironing and gardening....

~*don't expect that everyone will follow your way
this is my biggest problem...
i always want everyone to do things the way i want...
i know i can be demanding sometimes...
i am changing...i promise that i will stop this bad habit of mine...

~*don't expect that you will live for a long time
we don't know what will happen tomorrow...
that's why i appreciate every single thing i do and people around me...
who knows maybe i will get hit by a car tomorrow....

~*don't ever expect that every person you love will always be by your side...
when they are still alive...appreciate them...
i know the feelings of losing the person you love...
appreciate every family member and friend around you...
if i was given a chance to choose, my last words to you will not be "i don't know"...
i know you are suffering now...i am afraid of losing you too...
i have not even spend enough time with you yet....i will pray for you....



~*tzelovelife

my special equations.....

(^0^) considerate + good listener --> allyson

(*@*) playful + faithful --> wanwei

(@.@) talkative + able to endure hardship --> yinying

(^-^) sensitive + caring --> weichien

(~.~) good temper + easy-going --> yeexin

(^0^) sweet + matured --> sutien

(*@*) thoughtful + simple --> shinnee

(@.@) mischievous + understandable --> june-san

(^-^) huggable + hardworking --> angel

(~.~) cute + mindful --> zining

(^o^) cheerful + heart-follower --> wengyee



~*tzelovelife

things i enjoy the most....

~* drinking water (especially milk,coffee and green tea)

~*bathe

~*writing my dairy

~*eating banana

~*being alone (sometimes~~)

~*surrounded by loads of loads of books

~*flip through my collection of magazines

~*stare at one point without thinking about anything (my favourite!! XD)

~*reading newspaper in the toilet :P

~*sit at the swing outside my house after 10p.m.




~*tzelovelife

this is you...

this was what usually happened to you........you always dreamt and wished and even planned and even took actions to ensure that every bit of what you wanted must worked well.....perfectly well....and mostly things didin't worked the way you wanted.....

guess you are a perfectionist after all....

after all,everything you want for yourself is a tall order....

i know you are a sensitive person...i can fell it...everytime your friend said something whether it was accidentally or in purpose....you will take it seriously....i have told you to take it easy and ignore them....i know it is hard for you but you have to try too....

you are a high achiever too....your aims are really high and when you fail to achieve them...you will punish yourself...you will not blame anyone but yourself...torturing youself....you have to change that....we all learn from our own experiences....i know its painful....but you have to face it....failures make us stronger....

i know that you love solitary...you can walk alone to anywhere you like.....you love to shop alone...your favourite place would be the library....

you love to bathe too....you can even bathe for 1 hour...

you love coffee...and of course bitter chocolates...

i always caught you crying alone in your bedroom late at night...i know it felt great to let everything out...

you are a softhearted person too...you never show it to anyone...you can even shed a tear for a suffering stranger...you are a peace lover too...you hate arguements...you hid whenever your parents argue...after an arguement with your family or your friends you will definitely apologize no matter you are wrong or right...

you must love youself...

before its too late.....

tzelovelife~*